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How do you find balance in relationships?  How do you know when to invest your time and emotions and when you need to step back and guard your heart?  I realize that nothing is certain and there are always risks, but when do you know it's ok to let go and take a risk? Obviously I can't go through life unwilling to invest in others, unwilling to give too much, at the risk of being hurt.  However, I can't go around throwing my emotions, time, and energy to any and everyone. I suppose I'm waiting for an official "wanna go steady with me?" question, but that's a question that may never come.  (And yeah I know no one says that anymore, but it sure would make things easier.) What I have to realize is this is what I got...nothing more, but fortunately, nothing less.  Is it ok for me to start investing in this regardless of an official commitment ? It's not like I'm missing out on something great by waiting around.  There is nothing else.  I can't s...

Wow!  My Spring Break went by super fast.  I had a great time in DC, but it was extremely tiring!  We walked for miles seeing the city, but by the end of each day our legs were killing us.  A bunch of wusses , I know.   It was amazing to stand in the exact spot that Martin Luther King stood when he gave his "I have a dream speech ."  It was inspiring to walk through the Capitol's Rotunda where Presidents and Congressmen have walked.    It's not just someone else's history...it's my history. I got home about midnight Friday Night/Saturday Morning.  I did laundry all day Saturday and was working on our New Church today.  (It is official, the new church is ours.  The guys started sheet-rocking the walls of the Sanctuary today!  Soon there will be no more rented buildings!  YEAH!)  So I can't say that I've really rested up and am ready for school tomorrow. This week is another busy week for me.  I'm going to the Chris Tomlin concert on Thursday in Lit...

I suppose if I'm going to actually try and garnish feedback about my blog, I should update it like I said I was going to. Better late than never, I suppose. Here is my second choice in layout. The Coffee Notebook. As you can tell, I really like this whole "notebook/desk" theme. I suppose it's because when I blog, I envision this as a journal. So what do I like/dislike about this layout? I like coffee! I really like the organization. It's more girly , and has a cool pen where you can search things from my blog! I'm not crazy about the Font of the Blog Title "Originally Unoriginal". I'm sure you can change that in the html code, but I'm not that smart. So what's your take? Yeah or Nay? ************************** In other news, I'm leaving at 5 AM to head to DC. I'm really excited, except the weather isn't going to be that great. Rainy, cloudy, and cold. However, they are predicting a sunny Wednesday with a high of 71! ...

So my week has been pretty hectic and the weekend was even crazier.  So I haven't had time to do the whole "Blog Vote", but whatever.  I'll get to it eventually. This week is going to be pretty crazy as well.  It's 9 weeks test week for my students and next week is SPRING BREAK!  So trying to keep them focused is going to be hard.  I'm also preparing for a road trip to DC!!  I've never been,  so me, mom, and a friend of hers are hopping in the car without a schedule.  All we know is we are leaving Saturday and coming back the following Saturday. In other news, I did happen to see Mr. Amazing this weekend.  We went out Friday night and actually had a great time.  He was nice, gentlemanly, and attentive as normal.  That's it...nothing more, nothing less. Anyways, I haven't caught up on sleep from the weekend or from the loss of an hour...darn that daylight savings time thingy!  I'll try and do better at having something insightful to say!

Your vote counts! I've decided to change the background of my blog again. I was never fond of the previous template, but I did like the organization of it. I've found several that I like. So in the next few weeks, I'm going to be switching up the template. So everyone check in and decide which background you like best! My takes on this template: I love the desk idea, especially the iphone! I'm not too sure about the picture of the unicorn. It's not girly enough...a bit masculine. I do like the organization and the little bubble to show how many comments for each post.

Yes, there are more. Two Ex-boyfriends contacted me this week. That makes 4 guys I've dated or had some type of complicated relationship with who have contacted me in less than 2 weeks. I'm writing the screenplay as we we speak! One guy was my first real boyfriend. It wasn't surprising that he messaged me because we talk every once in awhile. But the other ex, well, I haven't seen him or talked to him in over 7 years. He's the only guy I ever loved. I've made references to him in this blog before, but they were subtle, and you may not remember. He was the guy I dated my senior year in high school, the one that I thought I was going to run off and marry and live happily ever after with. But things don't always happen like we plan. For whatever reasons, things happened directly opposite to what I had envisioned. I'm ok with it all now, and I know that God has a reason for it all. But I must admit that curiosity has latched hold of me, and I ...

We'll just chalk these 2 incidents up to more of Kimberly's Strange Guy Stories. Story #1 -- Mr. Amazing texted me on Valentine's Day to naturally wish me Happy Valentine's Day.  Then a couple of hours later he texted and said "just wanted to let you know you are amazing."  I asked what made him think of that, and he replied that he was just thinking about me that day.  We exchanged some pleasantries , "how is your day" etc.  But in ending the conversation he said "I just felt like you deserved to know how great you really are."   If I didn't have the need to stay clear of his charm, I would have been floating on cloud 9.  However, I grabbed the nearest chair and grounded myself firmly.  How convenient that while he's at home alone on Valentine's Day he thinks of me.  He should have tried a day later, and I may have been impressed.  Don't get me wrong, I'm sure he does honestly think I'm great and amazing.  But ...

I am enjoying the night I deserve. Finally, after weeks of being busy, I've had a free week night. I've had basketball games, night class, church, and other social obligations for weeks straight. Tonight I was able to come home at a decent hour and stay at home! I sat outside for about an hour on my balcony reading a book. Once I got too cold, I came inside and continued reading while soaking in a warm bubble bath. Then my brother cooked a really good dinner. BBQ chicken, corn, green beans, and potatoes. Now I'm watching The Secret Life of an American Teenager and am going to do some more reading after that. I'm enjoying my night off. I'm forgetting about stupid boys and dumb drama and problems I can't fix. Tonight I'm just relaxing!

Here's a quote from Grey's Anatomy. Lexie wants to tell Callie all about her new relationship. Lexie (talking about Mark): He's fun and he's funny. Even with no sex we just laugh and we talk. Callie: Yeah. I don't want to hear this. Lexie: Come on! But you have to. You're the only one who knows about us and I'm terrible at keeping secrets. Keeping secrets makes me sick. Callie: Look. Alone people don't like to hear about the together people. Okay. Even if the alone people are alone by choice. It's just sort of mean. It's sort of like bringing a 6-pack to an AA meeting

You should know by now that if I've avoided the blogosphere for too long, it means 1 or 2 things: My life is so busy that I don't have time to write. I am dealing with so many thoughts that I refuse to sit down and write because I don't want to deal with them. This time, its a mixture of the two. I'm taking a night class this semester to prepare for a 3 part test.  I have to take this test to be certified to teach a computer class next semester.  The kicker is, our district won't know if we'll even be able to offer the class until April, but I have to take all this training just in case it all works out.  Of course, when you ask for details, no one seems to know anything.  I've gotten so many different answers that it's left me a bit stressed.  I like to know what is expected of me, and everything is so up in the air that it's driving me crazy. I've also applied to Graduate School.  I planned on starting this summer, but the fellowship I'm ap...

As promised...here is the handbag meme that Chantell tagged me to do! First, these are the latest purses that I received.  I got both of these for Christmas.  The silver one I got from my parents.  I've used it once, but I really like it.  The problem is it's not quite as big as I like for everyday use.  The maroon MSU bag was given to me by some friends.  I'll use it when I'm at the game! Secondly, the purses I'm currently using.  I use both the black and the brown purse daily, just depending on what color I'm wearing.  The black purse was purchased last November in LA at one of my favorite stores Forever 21 .  It's really big put I LOVE it.  The brown purse I got for $20 or so at a little store in Jackson, MS called The Silver Gallery . Next is one of my favorite purses.  I used it almost all summer because it's big, white, durable, but really cute.  I bought this last Spring Break in Little Rock, AR at Forever 21.  I probably paid about $30 for it, ...

This week has been busy, and it looks like I'm about to get much busier.  I started a night class this morning, but I'll give you all the details this weekend.  I promise.  And a purse meme, compliments of Chantell's tag....all coming soon!

I was at a concert tonight, Bucky Covington .  But that's not the story.  I saw a guy walk in with several of his friends, and he was...Edward Cullen like.  (For those not in the know, that's the guy from Twilight .) I know, I'm sick, but it's true.  He was very good looking, but it was more than that.  He seemed to give off some type of energy.  I tried not to stare, but I don't think I was so good at following through.  He was dressed nicely in a grey turtleneck, jeans, and a black leather jacket. He just seemed so perfect.  He nor his friends stayed very long.  I saw them as they all walked out, my Edward strolling confidently and beautifully down the aisle.  Maybe they didn't like the music or maybe they had to go hunt?  I looked for him after the show was over, but I didn't see him. If he shows up in my dreams, then maybe I'll be on to something?  I did dream about hanging out with Tim Tebow a couple of nights ago though! :)

**Disclaimer**  I'll probably be giving away a little bit of the plot to the books, so if you are still reading the Series...proceed with caution! So I finally decided to read the Twilight books and figure out what was so great that it had all of my students (7 th graders to seniors) actually sticking their heads in a book!  It didn't take too long to realize that the story is plain mesmerizing.  I started the saga last Sunday and finished it today.  I even read the 3rd book in one night.  I started at 6:30 and couldn't stop reading until I finished it at 2:30 that morning. A guy friend and aspiring author said that he wanted to read the series and try to figure out what it was that women wanted in a good novel, since Twilight seemed to be the only thing teenage girls could talk about lately.  My first response was, "A girl wants out of a novel what she wants in reality but knows she isn't going to get...perfection!"  After finishing the last book, Breaking D...

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS! IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? All This Love -- Boys II Men WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? Who Knew -- Pink WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Only Grace -- Matthew West HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? There's No Place That Far -- Sarah Evans WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Again I Say Rejoice -- Israel & New Breed WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Indescribable -- Chris Tomlin WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Dreaming With a Broken Heart -- John Mayer WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Pop Bottles -- Baby Featuring Lil' Wayne WHAT IS 2+2? Do the Rock Man -- Montana Da Mac WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Love Song -- Sara Bareilles WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Battle -- Colbie Caillat (Ain't that the truth!) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Stay Beautiful -- Taylor Swift WHAT DO YOU ...

I have been preoccupied all week with reading the Twilight series. I realize that I'm a tad behind times, but I finally gave in to the peer-pressure of Junior High and High School students. I promise a more detailed post over the weekend. But I just finished book 2 and will not have book 3 in my hand until tomorrow, so I need to take advantage of the time I have to clean my apartment and do all the things I've been neglecting since I started this series!

My first week back to school turned out to be a great week.  The students behaved for the most part, and I got several things knocked off of my "to-do" list.   I went to the dentist and got my teeth cleaned.  I love having my teeth cleaned, especially now since they are pretty and straight!  I also went to the doctor and had my blood checked again.  I am extremely anemic.  I was put on iron pills about a year ago, but when I went back for a check up, my iron levels were still low.  The doctor doubled my dosage of iron, and this time my levels were up.  I'm glad about that because taking iron pills is so much better than a shot!  I still need to visit the eye doctor and the dermatologist , but they'll have to wait until I pay for the blood work up. This week I have to begin applying for Grad School.  I need to call and get my transcripts and fill out the application, etc.  The process shouldn't be too hard, but I have to get a start on it in order to make the deadl...

Mr. Amazing bought me a balloon (among other things) when he was here for my birthday this past August.  It was this huge balloon in the shape of a cupcake that said "Happy B-day" on it.  Surprisingly, the balloon has been sitting in the corner of my room since August still perfectly afloat.  It had a lost a little of it's air, but it was still perfectly upright.  I even made a comment about it to him via text yesterday saying that it was still up and had seemed to stick around longer than he did.  (For those of you wondering, he replied back "whatever." and I told him I was just kidding, although there was a lot of truth to the statement.) When I left today for church, I assume it was still afloat.  Being that it's been here so long, I've actually never paid it too much attention.  However, this afternoon when I came home from church, the balloon was half way to the floor.  It immediately caught my eye.  I walked over to it and pleaded with it.  "P...

I had an uneventful New Year's Eve.  It wasn't at all what I had anticipated, but by the time 12 AM arrived, I was just glad to be spending it with anyone at all. I ended up hanging out with my parents and going to one of their friend's house to ring in the new year.  We were all sitting around playing Deal or No Deal  and I looked down at my phone.  15 minutes until the new year.  10 minutes to the new year.  7 minutes to the new year.  I looked to an old friend next to me and said... "Why am I counting down?  Like in 7 minutes my life is going to radically change for the better?" She laughed and agreed..."Not like your knight in shining armor is going to arrive right at that moment, huh?"   "Nope...he'd probably be riding a mule and wearing tin foil anyway!" We were just joking around but they reality is true.  A new year isn't going to miraculously change anything.  No matter whether 2008 was the best year ever or the worst year ever...

I praise sing at my church every Sunday if I'm there.  This Sunday it was just me, Mr. Guitarman and Mr. Drummer, as the other musicians and praise singers were out of town.  Well, we were doing our thing this morning, just an acoustic guitar, a little drum for rhythm and our voices.  We got to the last song, "When I Speak Your Name."  I didn't even make it through the first verse, and I began to cry. My mind went to the only other time I had sung that song in an actual service.  It was a Wednesday night youth service.  Before that particular youth service, I had a tiny melt down that no one really knew about.  There have been tough times in my life, but I never remember feeling what I had felt that afternoon.  I was lying on my mom's couch after dinner and before church.  It had been a bad day at school, I was facing some financial difficulties, and I was having my first issues with Mr. Amazing.  I can only describe it as the worst spirit of fear that I'v...