Saddness
I know God has a plan, but it doesn't mean that people won't get hurt in the process.
Tonight was not good at church. The crap hit the fan in the middle of the service. Several people got up and walked out as a result. I really wanted to join them, but running away is not an option for me. I am watching families torn apart. I am seeing friends doubt one another and relationships waiver. I am trying to keep a right spirit, but it's hard.
If my pastor was wrong, (not that I think he is), how do I continue with those that are against him? They have handled this situation in a poor manner. People have spread rumors about me and any of you can take a look at some of the comments left on my blog lately. Why do I want to turn to people that are against me? But they say they love me? I can't comprehend that kind of love. Yes, I wish them the best, and I pray no harm comes their way. I've left a church before and am still able to speak to those people in public, so I'll have no problem doing the same.
What hurts the most is that my father, who doesn't even belong to my church, has been told more than I have. He's been given details that many have not been privy to. It's a stab in the back, and it hurts.
When I was 18, I left the church I was raised in because of the turmoil inside. I felt like I was not getting spiritually fed, and I hated to hear the things that were said behind my back along with other members of my family. I love my father; he is a good man, but sometimes he's too good. Instead of looking at the fact that his son was not in church and his wife and daughter were wavering, he thought about his loyalty to the people in his church. When he wouldn't help me, I had to help myself. My mother soon followed, although it still hurts her to be separated from her husband.
Have we not suffered enough? Has our family not been divided long enough. Now people wish to share the ugly details with him? I fear for his salvation, and I fear for those who fill him with information he shouldn't know. It's not all his fault. He doesn't know better. He wasn't raised in church, and the only church he has gone to never showed him how to step up and be the spiritual leader he needs to be.
And for all of that, my heart is sad....
Tonight was not good at church. The crap hit the fan in the middle of the service. Several people got up and walked out as a result. I really wanted to join them, but running away is not an option for me. I am watching families torn apart. I am seeing friends doubt one another and relationships waiver. I am trying to keep a right spirit, but it's hard.
If my pastor was wrong, (not that I think he is), how do I continue with those that are against him? They have handled this situation in a poor manner. People have spread rumors about me and any of you can take a look at some of the comments left on my blog lately. Why do I want to turn to people that are against me? But they say they love me? I can't comprehend that kind of love. Yes, I wish them the best, and I pray no harm comes their way. I've left a church before and am still able to speak to those people in public, so I'll have no problem doing the same.
What hurts the most is that my father, who doesn't even belong to my church, has been told more than I have. He's been given details that many have not been privy to. It's a stab in the back, and it hurts.
When I was 18, I left the church I was raised in because of the turmoil inside. I felt like I was not getting spiritually fed, and I hated to hear the things that were said behind my back along with other members of my family. I love my father; he is a good man, but sometimes he's too good. Instead of looking at the fact that his son was not in church and his wife and daughter were wavering, he thought about his loyalty to the people in his church. When he wouldn't help me, I had to help myself. My mother soon followed, although it still hurts her to be separated from her husband.
Have we not suffered enough? Has our family not been divided long enough. Now people wish to share the ugly details with him? I fear for his salvation, and I fear for those who fill him with information he shouldn't know. It's not all his fault. He doesn't know better. He wasn't raised in church, and the only church he has gone to never showed him how to step up and be the spiritual leader he needs to be.
And for all of that, my heart is sad....
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