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I found a dead mouse under the sink last night. I braved the wilderness without a hitch and then came home to it dead in my kitchen! I'll be contacting the apartment manager tomorrow. There's not enough room for more house guests. When we signed the lease, the manager said "Oh, we hardly ever have a pest problem, but we have pest control that comes once every 3 months." You know if something can happen, it will happen to me!

We survived the camping trip and actually had a great time! I'll be honest. 2 days was plenty of time for me. And next time, I'd like a nicer shower! But I do realize that for "roughing" it, it wasn't so bad. We did a 3 mile hike through the woods, climbed a few rock formations, and ended our adventures with a 6 mile canoe trip. My body is aching now! But all in all, it was so much fun, and the scenery was beautiful. We spent our nights sitting around our citronella candles singing praise and worship songs accompanied by Guitarman's Acoustic and sharing testimonies and asking meaningful questions about our fears and passions. Not only did we enjoy fellowship with our friends but with God and His creation! I'll add some pictures later, but now, I'm headed to my night soft bed in my air conditioned apartment!!

I'm super stoked about an upcoming camping trip! We are taking the youth group camping in Tishimingo State Park Thursday - Saturday. The guys have gone on 2 camping trips prior to this, but the girls have never gone. I've never been period. So I can't wait. I've been informed that tents, heat, and mosquitoes aren't going to be too much fun, but I'm ready for the experience! I may hate myself come Saturday , but right now I'm too excited! I think that possibly the youth leaders are more excited about going camping than the kids are! I'm sure I'll have tons of stories to tell when I get back and plenty of pictures to post. So please forgive me while I'm out of touch for a few days. I plan on turning my cell phone off when we reach camp Thursday and not turning it back on until Saturday when we pull out!

so apparently I sent the text message to the wrong number and not to the right person. Now I'm thinking if I didn't do it right maybe it was not meant to be sent??

I avoided him for 5 whole days. Then I went out to eat with friends and he was there. Then I said yes when he asked if I wanted to go get yogurt afterwards. I should have said no. Two hours later, I'm getting back in my car wondering what that whole conversation was about. Was he trying to show me what he needed out of me or was he informing me that I could never give him what he needed. Then he texted . I shouldn't have replied but I did. Then he showed up at the softball game. Then he was at my friend's house. I should have stayed home. Finally I couldn't take it anymore. It wasn't the way I wanted to have the conversation but I couldn't avoid it any longer. I apologized for being snippy towards him earlier today but that nothing he did made sense to me and I used it as a defense mechanism. I also told him that he needed to decide what exactly it was he wanted from me and until then we didn't need to hang out. Of course, I texted all this b

I've been extremely misleading to my readers about the guy I've been avoiding. He's not a jerk. He's probably one of the best guys I know. He simply is terrified of commitment or perhaps he just doesn't want commitment with me. I get frustrated with him for no reason usually. It's not as if I am as up front with him as I should be. Yes, he's said we should "hang out" and see where it goes. Yes he has given indications that perhaps he'd like to be more than friends, but I've never pressured him to give me a straight up answer. Anytime I do bring it up in the most remote way, he avoids the conversation. Then he acts as if nothing was ever said. That annoys me, but again, I don't really say anything about it. Why? Because I'd rather have him to complain about than to pressure him, he admit he never wants anything besides a friendship with me, and I lose him altogether. So technically I'm probably more messed up than he

So I've gone from avoiding to just throwing in the towel. I deleted his number from my cell. Of course I recognize it when he texts, but I don't remember it well enough to dial it in. That keeps me from texting him and asking him to go catch a movie. It means that any contact will have to be initiated by him. I just hope that this time I have enough will power not to add his number back in when he gives me that "I'm trying" line. I pray this time I'll be able to lay it all down on the line if need be. I just get so frustrated. If he's not the person God wants me to be with, then fine. I'm cool with that. I believe that God has a perfect will for my life and that includes a specific person. I could be with anyone and be in God's permissive will. But I want it to be perfect. And if he's not it, then fine! But why can't he go away??

I got this too cute dress from Target...I had to share it with y'all!

that I can be maternal....

Here's some music to tide you over while I try to talk myself into not avoiding the same thing I've been avoiding for weeks! :)

I have had the humbling opportunity to know that every guy I've ever dated or was interested in is now married or engaged. All of this has happened while I've been still single. To be honest, I never celebrated the fact the guy was getting hitched while I still had no one. There were a few times I cried, not for the guy, but for me. Every time the news came, I never said "He should have married me." Once glance at the happy couple in their wedding pictures, and I knew I was better off for not being the one getting married. I'm not saying all these guys were jerks and I deserved better (though some were and I sometimes did), but I have seen that every guy who I thought was THE ONE was not at all what I needed in my life. I ran across this quote today by CS Lewis and it went right along with what I wanted to blog about today... "We're not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us. We are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.

No luck with Apple Customer Service. It cost $249 plus tax to put a new screen on. However there is light at the end of the tunnel.... If you haven't heard the news, Apple is releasing the new iPhone 3G. It should be on sale at AT&T by July 11 th . And the best news is it will only be $199! So why pay $250 to get an old phone fixed, when I can pay $199 for a brand new one. The downfall I am anticipating..."We're sorry but your contract is not up for an upgrade. Therefore you will have to pay to cancel your contract or pay the full price for the new iPhone." I have a whole month to pray and travail that the people at AT&T will have mercy upon me and grant me my wish...an iPhone without a jacked up screen! I know I'm not cursed, and that I'm a very blessed person, but sometimes I feel like if there is crap on the ground, I will step in it! :)

I am hacked! I don't know whether to cry or throw up! I dropped my iPhone on the ground. It fell screen first and shattered the screen. The phone still works, but the glass is chipping off the screen. It's very unsightly. You are thinking the same thing everyone else is thinking, "No big deal. You got insurance right?" The answer to your question is yes, but the problem is....APPLE WON'T COVER ACCIDENTS! I bought a 2 year coverage plan for a $399 cell phone and they won't cover the screen breaking! How ridiculous is that!?? It will cost me almost as much as it did for the phone to get the screen replaced. ($250) I mean, that's just down right highway robbery! Now, I'm still praying the good Lord will help me find favor in some poor customer service man's heart tomorrow when I call, but if not, that poor man (or woman) is going to get an ear full! I mean I'd just about have to sell a kidney to get my phone fixed. I realized I was buyi

I do apologize for my inconsistency. Even though school is out, I'm staying extremely busy, and honestly, nothing exciting has happened to talk about. Until today.... Today, I saw a roach in my apartment! I freaked. I cannot stand those bugs! So I ran to my closet to grab a shoe and started looking under the bed. The roach was crawling to the other side. I ran to the other side of the bed, and the roach went back the other direction. I couldn't find him at first, but then I noticed one of his little nasty antennas in between the bed post and the wall. I got some brilliant idea to suck him up with the vacuum cleaner. When I got that out and put it up to the roach, he ran away. By the time I got the vacuum cleaner out of my hands and dropped back down to the floor, he had disappeared. Later my mom came over and helped me pull back my sheets to make sure he hadn't taken a nap in my bed. We still didn't see him. Mom reassured me that he had disappeared into a c