Pity Party Cancelled!

I was just about to pop the top on the "Whine" and commence into a nice pity party. I was done wrong, I deserve better, and life just isn't fair. Then an uninvited guest showed up and busted up the party....the truth!

Perhaps I wasn't so innocent after all. I will give myself that I wasn't alone in the wrongdoing. I was definitely done wrong! However, I was just as guilty. I jumped to conclusions, assumed the worst, and ran with my assumptions. Being wronged doesn't justify bad thoughts, ill-feelings, or rude words. The situation should have been handled completely differently and perhaps would have spared a lot of drama and hurt feelings. I suppose I was too caught up with expecting the worst that I made it up all on my own. And knowing my actions would be found guilty in court may not change the future, it does change the present me.

So today I sucked up my pride and self-righteous behavior. I put away the whine and party supplies and went straight to the apology. The person I apologized to assured me that an apology wasn't warranted, and apparently he/she didn't think he/she needed to give one up either. But the apology wasn't necessarily for that person, it was for me. And it wasn't given to elicit one from the other person either. I needed to get it out of my spirit. I needed to be able to put it all behind me. I needed to know that I handled things the best way I could, even if it was from hindsight. I had to be the Christian I claimed to be, and I needed the healing.

So for all of those looking for some "whine and cheese", I'm fresh out. Party cancelled!

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