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So I've gone from avoiding to just throwing in the towel. I deleted his number from my cell. Of course I recognize it when he texts, but I don't remember it well enough to dial it in. That keeps me from texting him and asking him to go catch a movie. It means that any contact will have to be initiated by him.

I just hope that this time I have enough will power not to add his number back in when he gives me that "I'm trying" line. I pray this time I'll be able to lay it all down on the line if need be.

I just get so frustrated. If he's not the person God wants me to be with, then fine. I'm cool with that. I believe that God has a perfect will for my life and that includes a specific person. I could be with anyone and be in God's permissive will. But I want it to be perfect. And if he's not it, then fine! But why can't he go away??

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