The things I currently hate...

I hate that I love you.

I hate that talking to you makes me feel better.

I hate that the fire of hope won't die.

I hate that I can't stop wishing.

I hate that the idea of talking to you makes me feel better but thinking it may be the last time makes me sick to my stomach.

I hate that I don't want to be your friend because I can't be more.  But I can't imagine not being your friend even if I can't be more.

I hate that I can't move on and terrified you will.

I hate that I want to move, but I don't want to move for you because I'm scared it won't be enough for you.

I hate that you can't see what I see. 

I hate that you can't be certain.

I hate having faith in you and not in "us."

I hate crying and being confused, especially when I think one day it may not even matter.

I hate caring.  I hate feeling.  I hate remembering.

Most of all, I hate being me without you.

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