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I'm ready now, and it's not here, and I'm going to get impatient soon. I don't like to be impatient; I don't like to lose control. I have no choice but to wait, and I definitely have no control. I haven't dated anyone in almost 6 years, and it hasn't been a big deal at all. I've had a few minor crushes, but nothing that was too time consuming. It was ok . I've been too busy going to college, getting a job, and planing my life that a guy in the picture was the least of my thoughts. Now here I am 6 years later, out of college with a good job. I've just purchased a new car; I'll be getting my braces off in December (God willing). With that, everything going on in my life will come to a screeching halt. I'm loving my job and I'm working in my church. There's not much more I can do to make my life settled. And now that I'm settled...I'm ready. I'm ready to date. I'm ready for a guy to occupy my time. And now that I...

but finally Grey's Anatomy is back. It's as if I was missing something this whole time, and now my best friend has returned! :) Did you know there are lots of websites all about Grey's Anatomy? There are websites with 100's of quotes from episodes. Try goggling it sometime. And you thought I was obsessed? Look, give me a break. I have to have something to occupy my time. I'm a school teacher and a youth leader, my life is all about helping young people find their way. Besides a few friends and my immediate family, there is nothing else going on for me. I have to live life vicariously through something. This past weekend, a friend of mine had a guy drive 8 hours to come visit her. They've never met in real life. It's kind of friends of friends, they connected on EC, and a year or so later he finally comes down here. He seems like a great guy and I hope things work out for them, but 8 hours for a girl he's never seen face to face?? I've been intereste...

I'm feeling much better...thanks for asking! :-) The new Rascal Flatts CD came out today, and you all know I'm a HUGE fan. I haven't listened to the whole album yet, but I'm enjoying it immensely. There is just something about Gary, the lead singer's, voice that makes me melt. I could listen to him all day long.... This is a video of a worship song at my new church, Grace Apostolic Fellowship. It's very amateur, very basic, but you'll get an idea of our new set up! Enjoy!

I have my yearly sinus infection. It tried to be slick this time, coming on in a different fashion. This time I had a soar throat, which is very unlike me. I've done a lot of screaming at football games lately, so I thought maybe it was from that. However it kept getting worse, and last night I got about 3 hours of sleep. So I called my principal this morning. I told him I was sick all night and couldn't make it in. He hit me with "We already have all our subs in; you have to come in." That was NOT what I wanted to hear. So I roll out of bed and get to school looking as bad as I felt. My principal told me he was working on getting me a sub, and thankfully at 10:00 am, I was allowed to leave. I got a doctor's appointment this afternoon. I'll request my shots and should be doing much better tomorrow. Did I mention that on the way to school I burned my tongue on the hot tea I was drinking. Then while I was at school I gave myself a nice, big paper cut on my finge...

In a matter of a 2 days I have gone from Cowboy boats to Yellow Stilettos. The teacher's proclaim I'm so young and vibrant. My students can't concentrate on their lesson because they want to know where I get all my shoes from. **sigh** The life of being a fashionable school teacher! HA! I think tomorrow I'm going preppy with my **cough** fake Sperry's !

"Christ arrives right on time to make this happen. He didn't, and doesn't, wait for us to get ready. He presented himself for this sacrificial death when we were far too weak and rebellious to do anything to get ourselves ready. And even if we hadn't been so weak, we wouldn't have known what to do anyway. We can understand someone dying for a person worth dying for, and we can understand how someone good and noble could inspire us to selfless sacrifice. But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while were of no use whatever to him." Romans 5:6-8 The Message Remix God sent His own son to DIE for us. He did it knowing we weren't worthy, knowing that some of us would never choose to love Him in return. Yet we still don't trust Him. We are still concerned that His will may not be the absolute best for our lives. As if the one who laid down His life for you, would not already have a perfect plan for you. Why then would...

Sometimes you don't know the difference until it's too late. I'm not a insect expert. However I know there are huge similarities between a moth and a butterfly. Both of them make some type of cocoon, have wings with pretty designs, etc. Yet if you look close enough, there are obvious distinctions between the two bugs. But if you aren't really noticing, a moth can appear to be a beautiful butterfly. Although we may not can tell them apart by looking, we all know that a moth can do some damage to our wardrobe...eating small holes into our cute outfits. Oftentimes in life, we come across a moth that we think is a butterfly. We think there is a beautiful thing/person in our lives, only to find find out that person is destructive. Many times I've mistaken certain situations thinking that it was good for me, only to find out that it was bad. Even after careful examination , it's hard to tell if that beautiful thing is going to help or destroy. Somet...

Last night at REMIX, our Wednesday night youth services, one of the other youth leaders was giving a devotion. He was refreshing us on the importance of quiet time with God. He really broke it down for everyone, including ways to become more disciplined and overcome time robbers. I really took what he said to heart, as I have slacked majorly on my quiet time. I know there is no good excuse, but with school starting, I just haven't made the time available to sit and commune with God like I should. Thankfully, God is patient and more understanding than myself. So as I was driving to school today, I was reviewing the aforementioned lesson in my head. I decided to turn on the radio and do a little praying on my way to work. I ended up having an awesome time of praise and worship while driving. Barlow Girls version of " Enough " was playing, and I just worshiped God and sang along. The lyrics to the song had great meaning this morning as I realized that God is enough for me. M...

You told me today "I think you're a real, live angel." I smiled a real, deep smile. I wanted to tell you that I love you...that I sit on the edge of falling deeply in love with you. You make me want to be dependent and needy. You entice me to be that whole totally in love, mushy person. Yet I hold on to my surroundings for dear life because I fear, I almost know with certainty, that you don't love me back. You like me, and sometimes you even want me, but you don't crave me, need me, adore me. How I long to be completely wrong for once. I try my best to play it cool, to forget the tugging in my heart when I see you or talk to you, but I find it more impossible each time. I've almost decided to cut contact with you for fear of my heart shattering into a million pieces. Yet some unknown force always pulls me back. I pray that God moves you away, but you only seem to show right back up. I don't take it as a sign nor do I dismiss you as a devilish temptation. W...

I'm the friend of the groom, and I got to be a bridesmaid! How cool is that? I was super excited. See sometimes guy friends get married and forget about their friends that are girls, but not this super cool friend. He had me in the wedding. It was so sweet. I cried! Here's a snapshot of me and my groomsman! I also got the cutest shirt over the weekend, so I had to get a quick pic to show you all. It ended up being a pretty decent weekend. I took off work Friday. I spent the night Thursday in Hot Springs, visited with friends on Friday, did the wedding Saturday night, and church on Sunday morning. Get this, I hung out with unconquerable boy and it was GREAT! We acted like normal, good friends, with no weird tension or expectations from one another. But more on all that later...

Could someone, anyone, please show me the life manual that states "Change is WRONG?" If someone could just point that out, then I'll end this diatribe. Until then, I'm fired up. It seems that I've run up against this in church, school, and just everyday life. People get angry with someone because they make a change in routine. The change wasn't illegal, but because someone didn't like it, they pitched a hissy fit as if the one making the change had committed one of the seven deadly sins. People don't like change, and I understand why. People like their rut. It's comfortable, and they know what to expect. When a change comes, these people are forced to act or get left behind. People are just lazy. People are lazy spiritually, emotionally, and physically. When a change comes, they search for an excuse to save them from taking action. Many people spend more time fighting the change than would have spent just getting with the program. Now I'm not ...