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This may be a bit out of the ordinary for me, but here it is anyways. Where are the Apostolics? On the Dearth of Apostolic Web Ministries—A 90&9 Web Panel was recently published on Ninetyandnine.com . Technologyy and the Apostolic way of life are two very important issues in my life, so I want to do my best and stir up the conversation a bit by adding my opinion. Why are there so few Apostolic websites/ministries out there? I would say because many Apostolics are afraid of anything new. Anything that seems the least bit worldly frightens many of our pastors and preachers. It's a sad, sad situation. As a whole, Apostolics are missing a huge avenue to outreach by eliminating TV and the internet from their lists. Even without the "fear" the internet, most Apostolics don't see the use in creating a web ministry, don't have the money to spend, or don't have the time to offer to it. Out church has a website but it's terrible and hasn't been updated in ...

Communication. Words. I love it. I thrive on it. I crave it. Whether it's talking, reading, writing, or listening. Whether it's through a book, an article, a song, a movie, or a person. Talking is the most common thing to do, yet amazingly sometimes, it's the hardest. It can be difficult to form into words the inner most thoughts. To relay in the appropriate manner, one's exact feelings, wishes, and desires can often be impossible. It's at the times that we most need to speak, that we come face to face with silence, and the times that need silence, we find ourselves saying too much. Words mean a great deal to me. They have a huge power in my life. I watch TV with closed captioning on almost all the time, which drives the rest of my family crazy. I have to hear each word, know the exact dialogue. It doesn't matter the action at times, as long as I can follow the conversation. I spend hours reading quotes, poems, and other's thoughts. I get high on the brillia...

There are things in life that I just despise. I can't stand for people to touch my feet or put their feet on me. And I really can't tolerate dishonesty. But right up there on my list on dislikes is packing! I detest packing. Obviously the hatred for packing is never quite strong enough to keep me home! I'm in the midst of packing for my departure to Hot Springs. I'll be back home in 2 weeks for a wedding that I'm in. So I don't have to pack everything I own. However, I'm thinking it would be a LOT easier just do go ahead and do that. I've been thinking there must be a reason why I dislike packing so much. (I should be a psychologist b/c I analyze things WAY too much.) I think it's the fact that it throws my mind off balance. When it comes to clothes, I'm not too much of a planner. If it's an important event, I may have an outfit in mind. When it comes to the everyday grind, I choose what would be comfortable right at that moment. Some morning...

I'm tired of being all doom and gloom. I finally have GREAT news to share. I got the job in Hot Springs, so I'll be there for the summer! I'm still a bit nervous about leaving everything so crazy here in Greenville. However, I really prayed about it, and God knew I wanted HIS will not my own. So obviously, this is what he wanted for me for now! Yeah, no more over anyalyzing of that situation. One down, millions more to go! Now my biggest trama...packing everything up, fitting it in my car, and unpacking it there! UGH! Oh well. For now, I'm going to bask in the idea that I actually have a REAL job! YEAH! Until later...

I'm experiencing one of the most helpless feelings in the world. I am watching my grandmother (aka Nanna) die, and there is nothing that can be done to save her. I haven't told a soul this, but it's much easier to write it than to actually say it. God told me that I was fixing to lose Nanna. A few months ago, I had a really strong urge to take a picture with Nanna. She's been having bad days for a while now, and she would only get dressed up every now and then. So I felt impressed to take a picture with her on one of her good days. I had a weird feeling that there wouldn't be much time left for us to be together. Now I realize that God was preparing me to lose her. I never took the picture..... Her memory had been getting worse. She would have spells ever so often when she would "zone out" but she would come to soon after. She's been in pain for years because of athritist and osteoporsis. She's smoked since she was a young teen, so she's been o...

A blog that I frequently visit had a great entry today. In this particular entry , the author told specific things that she learned from each of her ex-boyfriends. It seemed like a great activity, so here I am with my list. Boyfriend 1 -- Dating a guy just because he's older and has a cool car is not a good reason to date him. 15 is way to young to seriously date, and I should have listened to my parents and not insisted that I be allowed to date. Sometimes, parents really do know best. Boyfriend 2 -- It is possible to fall in love with someone at the age of 16 and really, truly love them. It is possible to be hurt by someone so much that the pain never goes away, it just becomes a dull numbness that you learn to live with. When people are wounded, they can attack you, even if you didn't do the wounding. No matter how much you love someone, you can't make them love you back. It is possible to be so wrapped up in someone else that you lose who you really are. Even t...

Every once in a while, God will speak to my heart, and I will know without doubt that it isHim. Then there are times where it seems as though He is giving me the silent treatment. I never doubt that He knows the answer to my problem; I just doubt that He'll reveal the answer to me at times. So here I am tonight, feeling a tad bit lost and searching for an answer. What can be even more nerve racking is that everyone else seems to know just what is right for me. Of course some say, "You're out of God's will if you do that." Then there are others that say, "Well I think God may be leading you in this direction." My new favorite is...."Sometimes God wants you to do what makes you happy." Maybe I should back up and tell you my perdicament. I may be moving to Hot Springs, AR for the summer. I'll be working there, and most likely won't return back home until mid August. Now most normal people wouldn't see the big deal, but it'...

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I'm in Hot Springs, job hunting. If this job works out then I'm going to be spending the summer here with some friends of mine. Just a way to have some new experiences. Anywaz, I promise to keep everyone posted! Since things are so crazy, I really haven't had time to formulate any real thoughts. I would recommend this article though. It's all about having a real soul mate. So check that out and have a good week. It will most likely be this weekend before I'm able to leave any of my thought-provoking words with ya. ;-) Until then....

Here I am, sitting at my computer, trying to figure out all the emotions that are streaming through my body. Let me explain them. Other fellow procrastinators can probably relate to this one. You know that feeling you have when you aren't doing anything, but in the back of your mind you know that you should be doing something. It's just enough to nag you, but not enough to force you into action. Well for the first time since January that feeling is GONE! Pure exhaustion. I just finished my last final, and I'm plumb tired! (as we say here in the South!) I've been juggling studying for finals, work, and my grandmother being in the hospital. So not only am I physically tired, but mentally tired. Relief! I'm so glad to be done with my finals. I don't even know what to do with myself because I don't have any school work to do or tests to study for. I can actually sit back and read a book or watch a movie without feeling guilty. (Closely related to #1) Nervousness...

Things have been crazy here. Finals are this week, and I'm studying my tail off. I took one final yesterday, studied for hours, and totally aced it! Thanks be to GOD! I have an exam today at 3 pm. My GPA rides on me making an A on this Final! So much prayer and supplication on my behalf is greatly appreciated! On top of everything else, my grandmother is in the hospital. So say a little prayer for her as well. Hopefully I'll be back to my bloggin' self! Until then...

Recently, I posted a list of 4 agreements that lead to a good marriage. One of the items was "In-Laws", so I wanted to share a little knowledge I gained from my College/Career Class that is previously centered around marriage and relationships. Genesis 2:24 Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh. Sometimes what is NOT said is just as important as what IS said. So what does this scripture NOT say?? It doesn't say that a WOMAN must leave her mother and father! Very, very interesting. (This scripture is repeated 2 other times in the Bible, Matthew 19:5 & Mark 10:7, and it always says he not she.) So 2 main problems exist in many marriages. First, the husband does not LEAVE his father and mother and CLEAVE to his wife. I've seen many "mamma's Boys" who couldn't bear the thought of telling their Mother to butt out of their marriage. It always turns really, really ugly from wha...

It seems that the talk of marriage, dating, and relationships has bombarded every single aspect of my life these days. I just can't seem to escape all the discussions and controversy. So keeping along with the saying "if you can't beat them, join them" I'm going to to blog about my run-ins with the dreaded topic. I guess with this first entry, I'll give you the background about how my life has become marriage central..... It all began towards the end of last year when one of my close friends became engaged. His engagement was followed soon after by 2 other guys in my church popping the question. Then a few days later, news came that another couple I'm acquainted with were tying the knot in a few weeks. Then other couples started sending out wedding invitations, including 2 girls that I graduated from high school with. Even my ex boyfriend is getting married in August! So as of August 6th, every guy that I've dated will be married, and I sit here, all a...

Well I'm back from my quick trip to my Cousin's graduation. Just a tip, if at all possible, never take your grandmother on a 9 hour road trip! I love her to death, but God bless her heart, she can get annoying rather quickly! Anyways...to my thought... Here's a reason to procrastinate. I'm normally a procrastinator, especially when it comes to school work. Well last Monday, I decided to go ahead and get something done. Unfortunately, I did it a day too soon. I needed a book for school that I have to read and right a book review on. I called the library, but they didn't have the book. However, they were going to check with other libraries and see if they could get it for me. Well I waited about a week, and Monday, I decided I had to go ahead and get that book. So I called the library back and asked if they were able to get it. The lady politely told me that if I had not been called or received a piece of paper in the mail, then they had not heard back about the book....