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That's the question I've been asking myself the past 2 days. My conclusion...pretty jacked up! So last week I met a guy at my cousin's wedding. I know his family, was introduced to him, and had a great time chatting it up and dancing the night away. We're talking about a good looking guy that's really got his act together. He owns his own business plus has another job, building his own house, never been married, no kids. A stand up guy here. He doesn't drink, goes to church every Sunday, and educated. He sounds like everything I've been looking for. Did I mention that he lives here so it wouldn't be a long distance thing? I could go on and on...opens the door for me, orders for me, gets me a drink just because I look thirsty, throws away my trash. So my question is, why in the world am I looking for something to be wrong ?? I am nit-picking everything to death. Most of the things that I am not a fan of are such small things like...he's got...

We'll just chalk these 2 incidents up to more of Kimberly's Strange Guy Stories. Story #1 -- Mr. Amazing texted me on Valentine's Day to naturally wish me Happy Valentine's Day.  Then a couple of hours later he texted and said "just wanted to let you know you are amazing."  I asked what made him think of that, and he replied that he was just thinking about me that day.  We exchanged some pleasantries , "how is your day" etc.  But in ending the conversation he said "I just felt like you deserved to know how great you really are."   If I didn't have the need to stay clear of his charm, I would have been floating on cloud 9.  However, I grabbed the nearest chair and grounded myself firmly.  How convenient that while he's at home alone on Valentine's Day he thinks of me.  He should have tried a day later, and I may have been impressed.  Don't get me wrong, I'm sure he does honestly think I'm great and amazing.  But ...

My brother invited a few people over last night to watch the Kimbo Slice fight .  I'm not a follower of UFC or MMA , but when I catch it on or see it live, I do find it interesting.  There has been huge publicity about Kimbo especially because of his YouTube fights, and so I decided to stay up and catch the fight with everyone else.   Kimbo's fight was the main event so we had to watch the other 2 hours of non-important people fight first.  My eyes were getting heavy but I had made it this long.  I had to see the action.   2 hours for 14 seconds!  Yep, Kimbo got his tail kicked in 14 seconds.  Might I add that it was by some no name guy who was smaller than Kimbo and was picked last minute to fight him when his original opponent Shamrock was ineligible because of a cut over his eye. Like I said, I don't know a lot about MMA fighting, but because Kimbo didn't even FIGHT BACK...the match was called and some Steve guy won by TKO.  Couldn't believe it.   Kimbo ...

Even though it's not in the same capacity as I originally planned, Unconquerable Boy has been conquered....once and for all!! While visiting my friend and my beautiful nieces this past weekend, I landed face to face with unconquerable boy and his new girlfriend. It was a bit awkward because I felt like everyone was waiting for the blow up. Now I'll admit seeing them cuddling and making goo-goo eyes at each other was not entertaining, but I can honestly say that it didn't phase me. I did introduce myself to her and shook her hand, and I did say "Hi, how are you?" in passing to him. Then I spent all New Year's day at his family's house watching bowl games. As soon as he left to take her to the airport for her return trip home, things seemed to go even smoother. The slight tension from everyone seemed to lift. Many people were surprised at my calm reaction. I guess they were maybe expecting fireworks or a reenactment of Carrie Underwood's "Before He...

I Got Nothin ' Left from the new Celine Dion CD! Anybody ever tell you that you're not whole Hollow shell of a man without a soul Never ever felt your warmth cause you're always cold Only thing that makes sense is letting go Anybody ever tell you that you've got nerve Treated my love like just another word Tired of giving love to you that you don't deserve So this is my way of saying it's over Cause I got nothing left I got nothing left I got nothing left I gave you my best and you treated it worthless So I've got nothing Anybody ever tell you that you're gonna learn Trust and respect are two things you must earn When it came to loving me you just weren't concerned You never gave a damn so I guess it's my turn Cause I got nothing left

For any of you who may have read the previous post and thought I was going to go crawling back... He already has a picture of her and him on his EC page...and his dot is red....PUHLEASE! You know the Carrie Underwood in me wants to message her right....

I thought about wallowing. I felt like I deserved to wallow. And just maybe, wallowing will hit me later, but right now I don't feel like wallowing. I won't lie and say that I'm not hurt and disappointed. I do miss the anticipation I use to feel when he called or texted . I do miss the opportunity to text him and tell him a joke. I even missed not texting him a picture of my brace-less smile yesterday. He was my friend, above all the other stuff, and he lied. Maybe he didn't directly come out and lie, but he omitted and led me to believe things that weren't true. Oh and trust me I was angry at first. Then the anger became confusion and sadness which led to tears....tears that wouldn't stop for a few hours. I told him that I couldn't be his friend anymore, and he didn't agree that was fair. He claims that I'm one of his closest friends, and he apologized. I admitted that maybe I was rash in saying I could never be his friend again, but it would be a ...

....he dropped it hard....and now I'm sweeping up the unrecognizable pieces of what was... Guess my instincts were right...yet I still can't process it all.... No need to say I told you so...my brain has told what's left of my shattered heart that enough already...

I've restarted this post 3 times! I have so much to say, so much emotion, but I don't know how to express it. But I do know that I have to express it, or I'll explode. I did ask him if he would mind if I blogged about him, and he encouraged it. I thought about finishing "Jenny's Story" , but it didn't feel right. When I first wrote Jenny's story, it was based on a comment my friend ( DS ) had made about me opening up and being the real Kim. I believed there was truth to his comment, but I didn't think it was such a big deal. Now, I realize how right he was and how I am Jenny. Now I feel like I have to admit my issues and not hide behind an analogy. So Here is Kim's Story... When I was a young teenager I did the whole dating thing. I had several boyfriends back to back and was trusting and loving. Then I met a boy, fell in love, and thought my life was set. He broke my heart at the age of 17, which is normal for most teenage boys to do. Unfortun...

The infamous Date Weekend occurred. It ended up being less date, more just hanging out, due to circumstances, but it was worth the trip. You aren't getting details on here. Sorry, but I just don't feel comfortable throwing out all his business on here without his permission. All I'll tell you is we both have feelings for each other. He cares about me a lot, but he's not going to make any promises until he knows that he's everything he needs to be. It was the most honest, respectable answer I've ever received from a guy in my life. So I'm pretty pleased. I'll blog about my feelings later. But now inquiring minds know, and if anything else transpires, I'll fill you in!

Today will make a great chapter in the book of my life. I'm going to write it when I'm old, so that the I won't care if my secrets are out... I'm not going to go into a lot of details here, but there are some things that I learned today that I wish to share... Blogs will be read by those you don't think will read them. No matter how "unknown" you think you are, being online makes you suddenly famous. Therefore be 200% sure you want people to know what you write. Sometimes things shouldn't be told. Even if you think they really should. Trust me, some things are better left unknown. There is a reason lying is a sin. It's bad. You shouldn't do it. Good friends will throw themselves under a bus for you. A better friend will allow YOU to throw them under the bus. I almost became "that" girl, and even though some may think I am "that" girl, I'm not. God is so good at His job, working things out for our good, that when we screw...

In the past few weeks I have admitted my willingness to begin dating and even confessed interest in a guy . As all of this has come to light, the discussion of successful women being intimidating has come to play. To all of this, here is my reply. I've always been hard line when it came to guys and relationships. No one was good enough to stop me from achieving my goals. I'm very careful on who I let pass my walls; I don't do close relationships well, even with just friends. I despise clingy, needy people. I cannot tolerate girls who totally lose their identities when dating a guy. I'm not a girly , mushy girl. I know what I want. I have my own opinions, and I'm not timid about sharing them, although I'll never force them on anyone. That's me....take me or leave me. I'm the guys' girl. The girl that doesn't really hang out with the girls. I spend my Saturday afternoons watching football and actually enjoying it. I'm the bridesmaid who is the...

You told me today "I think you're a real, live angel." I smiled a real, deep smile. I wanted to tell you that I love you...that I sit on the edge of falling deeply in love with you. You make me want to be dependent and needy. You entice me to be that whole totally in love, mushy person. Yet I hold on to my surroundings for dear life because I fear, I almost know with certainty, that you don't love me back. You like me, and sometimes you even want me, but you don't crave me, need me, adore me. How I long to be completely wrong for once. I try my best to play it cool, to forget the tugging in my heart when I see you or talk to you, but I find it more impossible each time. I've almost decided to cut contact with you for fear of my heart shattering into a million pieces. Yet some unknown force always pulls me back. I pray that God moves you away, but you only seem to show right back up. I don't take it as a sign nor do I dismiss you as a devilish temptation. W...

I'm the friend of the groom, and I got to be a bridesmaid! How cool is that? I was super excited. See sometimes guy friends get married and forget about their friends that are girls, but not this super cool friend. He had me in the wedding. It was so sweet. I cried! Here's a snapshot of me and my groomsman! I also got the cutest shirt over the weekend, so I had to get a quick pic to show you all. It ended up being a pretty decent weekend. I took off work Friday. I spent the night Thursday in Hot Springs, visited with friends on Friday, did the wedding Saturday night, and church on Sunday morning. Get this, I hung out with unconquerable boy and it was GREAT! We acted like normal, good friends, with no weird tension or expectations from one another. But more on all that later...

I'm not a liar! I promise! 3 days later is more consistent than earlier this year! I'm going to do better...trust me! On to the post... God is really doing some super great things in my life right now. However, he's doing it in some extremely unorthodox ways. Actually, if you knew all the details of what's going on right now, you'd probably think "You say this is good ??" But the lesson that I'm learning through it all is so powerful. I wish I could lay it all out here for you all, but unfortunately, I can't. I can tell you a few things though. First, I did conquer the unconquerable boy. (See blog entries from "A Month in My Life") Not just because he ran back to his ex-girlfriend, but because I honestly know that God had something else in store. I felt that going into the whole thing, but sometimes I need reassurance, and I got that too! Sunday night I was in the altar praying and my Pastor came to pray for me. He told me that I had the ...