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Jesus and I sat and had an intense conversation today. It was good to have the time to just sit down and enjoy talking with him without feeling rushed. Grad school and a full time job doesn't offer a ton of down time. But during our time together, he impressed upon me a scripture "Yet he slay me, yet will I trust Him." I know the verse; I know what it means, but for the first time, I let the weight of those words really sink in. I have a hard time with trust, and to apply this verse to my life, the real truth of this verse, is a bit overwhelming. When I pray this verse, I'm saying "God, even if all my hopes and ambitions and dreams are never fulfilled, even if I never get what I want, even if everything in my life falls apart, I will still trust that God has it under control." Do we really realize how heavy that is?? That's trust beyond my imagination. I know that God wants me to trust Him that much. And I'm learning. But something else I rea

I just need someone to tell me what to do. I need them to make the decision for me that I can't seem to make on my own. Every time I think I have made up my mind, I become doubtful yet again. I just need to sit down and have a good cry, and I'm sure by the time I post this blog, I will have had it. I'm just stressed. Completely, utterly, worn slap out. I teach plus grad school plus extra-curricular activities with school plus training for the class I am currently teaching. Through school, sleep, and Jesus in there and there isn't a free minute. And the world keeps spinning, and people don't stop having their lives because my life is busy. And I feel left out. Lately, I haven't been able to connect with anyone or anything. I feel so useless and worthless. I feel unlovable, as if no one will ever really be able to accept the real me. And whether these things are true or not...it's how I feel right now and it's all a bit overwhelming.

I just received extremely sad new; a former student of mine was killed instantly in a car crash earlier today. She was on my yearbook staff a couple of years ago and was one of the students that I was closest too, even after graduation. She texted me and kept in touch via Facebook . I saw her with her boyfriend at a softball game last week. She let me borrow her pony tail holder. I meant to get it back to her soon. This is the 3rd student/former student that has passed away since school started in August. It's hard for me as a teacher to see life end so tragically, so abruptly. They aren't suppose to die. They are teenagers. But here I am, creating memorials for these students to put in the upcoming yearbook. Here we are comforting students who have lost their brother, sister, and friends.

I am sorry for the long delay between blog posts. Who knew life would get so busy? But, alas, I have scheduled time to write to those faithful followers that are left! So a quick run-down of what has been going on in my life lately: Grad school has been kicking my butt...so I kicked back! Scored a 102 on my first Intro to Counseling class and a 100 on my first counseling video! It's requiring a lot of work, but I'm managing. I may only take 1 class next semester because Spring Semester is usually my busiest at school. We'll see how it works. I may have conquered my problem of procrastination...least for now. With everything on my plate (2 grad classes, 1 online training, monthly face to face training, etc) I can't afford to get behind. I've been doing a great job of staying on top of the game, if I do say so myself. I got a DOG! He's a 2 year old Yorkie who is house trained and use to apartment life. Between my brother and I, I am sure we can manage hi

My favorite line from the Alanis Morissette '90's hit, "Ironic", is "It's like meeting the man of your dreams....then meeting his beautiful wife..." So with that opening line, you know that there is a back story , right. Here it comes. My mom just underwent some serious surgery this week, and praise be to God, she is doing well and will be coming back home tomorrow. As a result of the surgery, I was sending out mass text messages to just about every contact in my cell to keep everyone updated. After the 3rd or 4 th text, finally declaring that mom was awake and doing well, I got a text from Good, Ole Boy asking "Did you take off work today?" So I texted back and said "No, I had grad school this afternoon, and mom refused to let me miss my 2 nd class." And that, my blogfriends , was the entire conversation. I was never asked how she was neither was I told he was glad she was ok . Simply a random question with no purpose or re

I was just about to pop the top on the "Whine" and commence into a nice pity party. I was done wrong, I deserve better, and life just isn't fair. Then an uninvited guest showed up and busted up the party....the truth! Perhaps I wasn't so innocent after all. I will give myself that I wasn't alone in the wrongdoing. I was definitely done wrong! However, I was just as guilty. I jumped to conclusions, assumed the worst, and ran with my assumptions. Being wronged doesn't justify bad thoughts, ill-feelings, or rude words. The situation should have been handled completely differently and perhaps would have spared a lot of drama and hurt feelings. I suppose I was too caught up with expecting the worst that I made it up all on my own. And knowing my actions would be found guilty in court may not change the future, it does change the present me. So today I sucked up my pride and self-righteous behavior. I put away the whine and party supplies and went straigh

Well today was the first day of school. I know....WAY TOO EARLY! People here in the MS Delta haven't figured out that most people don't start until Labor Day. Oh well, we will survive. Today was actually a great first day. I am teaching a new class for both me and the school, Information and Communication Technology 1 ( ICT 1). I'm really excited about teaching computers and typing and all the cool gadgets I get for my room. The only set back is that my equipment hasn't come in yet. So I'm teaching a Technology class without Technology! It should be in soon, and I have several things to do before we even need to begin with the computers. Besides starting this new class, I'll be attending 2 grad classes on the 19 th . I am going to begin work on my Master's in School Counseling. I'm a bit nervous about handling the workload of teaching and learning, but I think I'm going to be able to balance it all. Perhaps it's for the best I'm n

One day I'm going to log into blogger and write this great post on how everything is going my way and how I've found the love of my life. One day, things are going to work in my favor and there will be no drama or trauma. Unfortunately, today isn't that day. One of my old students accidentally shot and killed his best friend, another former student of mine. They were going into the 10 th grade. I can't even fathom what that poor boy and the family of the deceased child is going through. I can't imagine how terrified and sad and angry and confused they must be. And all I can muster is, thank God I'm not having to deal with that kind of sadness. Good, ole boy is totally out of the picture. Why is not an issue I'm going to discuss here in the blogosphere , but it didn't work out. I know that I was extremely confused about how he made me feel, but part of that was fear to get too attached because I was afraid, just like every other guy, he would wa

This independent film company is making a movie here in town. It's called The Dynamiter . They've been filming around town, using all local people. And today, they were filming at the school. Well I had to head up to the school today and teach the new teachers how to work the grading software, school email, etc. So I got to hang out with some of the film crew while I was waiting to teach my workshop. It didn't take me long until I was chit-chatting with producers and the directors. Who cares if it's a small budget film that will just be shown at film festivals. This is fun stuff! (Although I wouldn't have minded a hot actor or 2. Too bad the lead guy is a 15 year old!) So towards the end of the day, one of the producers came into the office and asked if someone could read 2 lines over the intercom for one of the scenes. Well being the intercom whore that I am, I quickly agreed. So my voice will be in the movie! After a little while, the producer and his

Lying to yourself is less painful than having someone else lie to you. And so we lie because it’s easier that way. And after a while you believe the lie, and you forget you were ever lying in the first place. And because you’ ve lived it so long, and with such passion, everyone believes it is the truth. And possibly, the lie has become the truth. Having no heart is less painful than having a broken heart. It’s much easier to not deal with it at all then risk the chance of things getting shattered and bruised. And so you build a wall or disengage it, or do whatever is necessary to make it not function. And again, people see this as the real you. The machine that is invincible, resilient. But you know the truth…and so you lie to yourself until you believe it is the truth. And you live your life, never quite certain what is really the truth and what is really the lie. And because you can’t believe yourself, you don’t believe others either. You analyze their words and actions b

Dad, Mom, and I went on a very quick trip to Baton Rouge Wednesday and Thursday. We had a nice time shopping and eating! (I overruled and got to pick most of the places to go!) After a late lunch at Olive Garden, we set out on our way home. But we weren't aware of the adventurous trip home it would be! Not too far out of town, I had the sudden urge to pee. (Not surprising, considering the Starbucks coffee and 2 raspberry lemonades I had to drink earlier.) Dad, being the annoying man he is, said that he wasn't going to stop, but alas, pulled in to a McDonald's. As I was running back out to the car, dad began to pull out of the parking spot, and I noticed a huge spot of fresh car gunk/liquid where the car had just been. "Uh, I sure hope that's not coming out of our car!" I told Dad. "Doesn't look like oil." Dad replied. " Hmm , you think it's transmission fluid?" I questioned. Dad got out, looked under the car, and sure en

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One day I opened up my inbox to an interesting email. A woman named Kaycee Jane (I love that name by the way) had written a book and asked if I would ready it and do a review on my blog. Well being the reader that I am, and seeing as the book's topic is definitely an interest of mine, I happily agreed. I am a bit sorry that it has taken me so long to actually do what I promised, but as all of you readers have already realized, I'm also better late than never with my work! Frog or Prince? The Smart Girl's Guide to Boyfriends by Kaycee Jane! This book presents a very systematic way of analyzing the current guy you are with to see if he's a Frog or a Prince. Simple as that! There are charts, check lists, and quizzes to help you discover whether the "issues" you are having with your significant other are things you can compromise on or whether they are deal breakers. Obviously, many things discussed in this book are no brainers . Girls, we know that if

I still haven't received word about the Teacher Fellowship. The State of Mississippi has possibly gotten their act together and signed the budget just in the nick of time. So hopefully, I'll know something regarding money next week! I went ahead and met with my advisor to discuss scheduling options in case the grant comes through. (Even if it doesn't , I'm gonna try and make it all work.) The School Counseling program is a 60 hour program, and if I take 2 classes a semester plus summer school I can finish everything in 3 calendar years. That works perfectly because the Teacher Fellowship only allows you 3 years. But there are some catches... The classes I need for the first semester are only offered at 3:30 and 6:00 PM. The University is 45 minutes away from where I teach. That means, the school is going to have to give me the last period of the day free so that I can leave at 2:00 once a week to make it to my classes. However, I can take both classes in 1 day

I really have been trying hard! Honestly! I've actually been wanting it to work. But the skepticism inside of me just keeps rearing its ugly, little head. I think he's been a bit shady lately. And I know that I can be totally taking this way overboard, but it's just not all adding up. Seeing as that my track record hasn't been the greatest when it comes to guys, I have to be extra careful. I don't want to get to attached and then it all come crumbling down, like normal. And I know some precious person out there in the blogosphere is saying, "You shouldn't be so negative, etc." But, yes I should! When every guy I've ever liked has been shady or non- committal or just a plain jerk, well, being too cautious is probably my best bet! So maybe, I won't have to find anything wrong with him. Perhaps I won't have to decide if I really like him. Maybe he'll decide he doesn't like me first....maybe he already has?

One of my good friends passed away Wednesday night. He was 27 years old. He had a 3 year old son. I was making plans to go visit him and his wife next month in Texas. Now he's gone...just like that. It makes me think about the importance of life, and how at any moment, those we love can be taken away from us without any warning. It makes you remember that life is more than work, school, and responsibilities. It's about making memories and spending time with those we love. Unfortunately , we don't always remember to do that until it's too late. I'm gonna miss the fact he isn't there to offer encouragment or ask me about my latest hairstyle. But I know he's with the Father...and there is no better place to be!

I don't like him today. Today I wanted to pick a fight. He gave me a couple of chances. I know he didn't mean to, he had no idea he was doing it, but I wanted to argue and tell him how dumb he was. I wanted to tell him that he doesn't know me at all so quit pretending that he does and quit assuming things about me. But it was all via text and he's out of town and well it's just not worth it. I'm wishing guys would drop off the face of the planet right about now!

He's growing on me. That's all I can really say about any developments with Good, Ole Boy. He is a fabulously great guy with his only flaws as of now being his " countryness " and that he works a lot. But then again, I suppose the fact that he's work driven is not necessarily a bad thing. I have had a couple of very good conversations with him that greatly impacted my impression of him for the better. But let's not go around slinging titles around; there is no commitment yet! In other news, I am going camping again next weekend. This will be our 2 nd annual summer camping trip with my good buddies from church. We are all super pumped about our adventure. We had such a blast last time, creating memories tha t, thanks to our fearless Camping Guide, are written down in not only pen and paper, but typed via Myspace and Facebook ! So even if we wanted to forget, we can't. And now millions of others are able to read it and laugh at us as well!! Besi

...often go awry! Now, spiritually I would say to that...."Yes, our plans often go awry, but God's plan is always perfect." And I know in my heart that is completely, correct. However my flesh says, "sometimes my plan seems really good, and it would be great if God would go with it. Or at least give a girl a head's up!" Here's the deal. MY plans were to apply for this teacher fellowship that would pay for my grad school tuition. I would take a class each semester and then load up in the summer. I would be done in 3 years and also be done with the sign-on commitment to teach in MS for 3 years. I would be free to do and go wherever with my educational counseling masters after that! Of course everyone assured me I would be a shoe-in! Well it seems that the deadline is here to announce the fellows for the upcoming school year, and I haven't heard jack. Now, this could possibly be that my nice state congressmen have yet to approve the budget fo

That's the question I've been asking myself the past 2 days. My conclusion...pretty jacked up! So last week I met a guy at my cousin's wedding. I know his family, was introduced to him, and had a great time chatting it up and dancing the night away. We're talking about a good looking guy that's really got his act together. He owns his own business plus has another job, building his own house, never been married, no kids. A stand up guy here. He doesn't drink, goes to church every Sunday, and educated. He sounds like everything I've been looking for. Did I mention that he lives here so it wouldn't be a long distance thing? I could go on and on...opens the door for me, orders for me, gets me a drink just because I look thirsty, throws away my trash. So my question is, why in the world am I looking for something to be wrong ?? I am nit-picking everything to death. Most of the things that I am not a fan of are such small things like...he's got

I must say I just had the most relaxing 4 days of my life. Mom and I left Monday morning to spend a few days at a friend's beach house. Tuesday morning, I woke up, shaved, brushed my teeth, put on my swimming suit, grabbed a towel, bottled water, sunscreen and a book and headed outside to the beach. I literally laid in the sun from 8 am - 4 pm. I read, I prayed, I mediated, I watched other people. I cleared my mind completely. It was a total brain detox. I didn't worry about anyone or anything from home. I didn't have to deal with any leftover drama. I didn't worry about any guys texting or calling. It may have been the only time in my life I was completely mellowed out. Counting mom and I, there were 6 ladies in the house. None of us had a schedule. We all laid around. We all agreed on places to eat, places to shop, and for the rest of the time we read, laughed, sang Motown hits, and danced in the kitchen. This mini-vacation was just what I needed!

So the beginning of last week was pretty rough. I had a whole melt down concerning Mr. Amazing. Out of the blue, early one morning, when I should have been sleeping, I got this sick, nervous feeling about him. I began praying about the situation and just felt an overwhelming feeling to forget all about him and leave the whole situation alone. Well of course that frustrated me because that wasn't what I wanted to do. I wanted to have my cake and eat it too. I wanted God's will to be my will, and in this case, that wasn't happening. But by the end of the week, I felt confident that I could do it. I've made no contact, and when he did finally text me, I was nice but short. As my friend said, "must be pretty difficult breaking up with someone you aren't dating?" And I think he's right. It would be a little weird for me to text and say out of the blue, "I don't want to be your friend with benefits anymore." But I'm thinking he&#

...the rest of my life to go! I'm patting myself and God on the back for a job well done. I've made it a week on my diet, and I've endured some hard decisions but made it out alive thanks to the good Lord's guidance. I had a very important conversation with "The Ex" that should keep things going well. He admitted that due to circumstances he isn't interested in a relationship, and I'm glad to hear that he's realized that. We both agreed that we wanted to stay connected and friends and that if in the future, if things changed, we would be upfront. Neither of us are looking to play around with each other's emotions; we are both to old for that. I was so relieved to hear him say that. I was on my guard because I knew with so much history it would be easy to fall back into something just because of emotions. However, I knew that wasn't what I really wanted. If I am ever to be with him, I want it to be because of who we are as people now

I've never been on a diet. (Thank you mom, dad, and God for my high metabolism.) But I would assume that when on a diet, like an AA member, it would be good to confess the "slips" you almost have. It seems healthy to get it out there. So here's the real truth about the ex boyfriend. The Ex, as he will now be affectionately referred to, was the only guy I ever loved. Despite enough drama to make us the lead characters in a CW hit teenage show, I honestly thought I would spend the rest of my life with him. When it all ended, I spent the next 8 years convincing myself I was better off and becoming a total independent woman. Then one morning I woke up to a generic friend request email from Facebook . The Ex has added me as a friend! WHAT? I haven't spoken to him in 7 years? How did he find me? Why? We exchanged a few pleasantries and that was all. Even though at the onset I freaked, I was able to go back to life as normal. He didn't want anything b

So Sunday my favorite visiting preacher was in town. I think Pastor let him take a look at my blog before he preached, but I'm glad he did. He told me exactly what I needed to hear; it was a great reminder that God is in control. He talked about when the disciples were on the boat in the middle of the storm. They freaked out and ran downstairs to wake Jesus up. Jesus got a little snippy with them after He calmed the storm and said, "Don't you guys have any faith? Why would you think this ship would sink if I was in it?" Just a few stories later, Jesus is with His disciples, and they have a picnic, feeding 5000 people with a little boy's lunch. Had the disciples not gone through the storm, had their faith not been tested, they may not have had enough faith to enjoy the picnic. I suppose it really hit home when the preacher said, "If Jesus is living in your heart, you can't drown. You'll never go under." Hmm ...sounds exactly like my fear from my

....better build an Ark!  It's been raining here literally and figuratively for the past, say, 3 weeks.  Today was the first Saturday of sun since I can remember.  Maybe this means that the downpour of all the thoughts in my head will have a little break too.   Why is that everything can be going fine, and then all of a sudden, it all falls on top of you?  It's like everyone waits to drop their emotional trash all at the same time.  It's like I don't know which way is up sometimes.  The thing is no matter how much I analyze and run things over in my mind, I'm not going to be able to change anything.  What is suppose to happen will happen, right?   I don't even know where to begin with it all.  I don't want to process any of it.  I want it all to go away, but I'm afraid if it all goes away, I'll be left with nothing.  So perhaps it's all my fault for not just saying "I can't take the drama."  But to tell everyone to leave me alone, w

"Why are you talking about me to other people?" "How do you know it was about you?" "If it wasn't about me, then why would that person have told me?" " Ok , so if you think it is about you, then maybe I told them because you aren't talking to me." "I'm not not talking to you. I'm talking to you. I'm just maybe not talking to you as in depth as usual. I've been busy." "Busy or avoiding?" "Maybe both." "Why is that?" " Cuz last time I talked to you, you didn't have anything to say back. So I decided I was just gonna go about my business until you decided to talk." "Well I'm talking now, or at least you seem to think I'm talking now." "I just wish you could tell me these things. Why do I always have to hear it from someone else? Makes me look dumb." "Just makes it look like you aren't listening to me." " Buh ! Fine! You win.

It's been an absolutely crazy couple of weeks, and I do apologize for not keeping you all updated. I'm sure you have just been at wit's end not being able to hear my rants and raves. I'm not sure how you have all managed without me! :) So I've had several hour long conversations with my ex-boyfriend, the only guy I ever loved. Mr. Amazing has been very attentive via text, and even said he missed me the other day. Go figure. On top of that, I've had some extremely stressful situations at school. Not just discipline issues but real frustrating, no answer available situations. Then I had to decorate for Prom last week and chaperon, but that was actually kinda fun, just time consuming! So my brain has been fried along with my emotions, and therefore I just didn't find time to blog. Plus I'm learning that too many people read my blog and so I have to be careful what I write. I don't want anyone to get their feelings hurt and I don't want one

I often pray things, and I know that God hears me.  However I'm not always sure He's listening.  I guess I just figure out of the 6 billion + people in the world, my requests aren't as important as starving people in Asia or displaced citizens of Darfur . Thankfully, God is listening, and my requests are important to him, even if I forget that sometimes.  What's also great is that He reminds me that He's working on things.  For example.... I firmly believe there is reason why I come in contact with every person that I meet.  I don't always know the reason, but each person is somehow significant in the development of my life. I often believe that there may not be any other reason for contact other than to share God with that person.  So as with Mr. Amazing, I've been certain that God has a reason for him walking into my life and showing back up all the time.  Therefore,  I pray for him weekly, sometimes daily, that God would do a work in his life.  I pray tha

My pastor bought me a cute, abridged version of "He's Just Not That Into You" while he and his wife were on vacation. It took me perhaps 20 minutes to go through it. I laughed, I cringed, and I sadly nodded my head in agreement on several occasions. I read a few excepts out loud at lunch and my father said, "Why are you reading that? You already know all of it. You could write your own version." To which I had to reply, "I know that's what's sad. I know it, all women know it, and somebody made millions and even had it turned into a movie!" What is it about us that we can know it for everyone else, but when it comes to ourselves, we can't see it? But not to put all the blame on us, although girls should probably take most of the responsibility , why can't guys just say it? One excerpt read "A man would rather be trampled by elephants that are on fire than tell you he's just not that into you." Why can't they ju

It seems like a lifetime ago when church drama was ruling my life, and yet it seems like only yesterday we gave birth to Grace Fellowship.  Regardless what it feels like, in less than 2 years we have moved into our new church building and had Easter Service right there in between the sheet rocked walls! Things have definitely not been easy.  There has been heartaches, tears, frustration, and doubts. But they seem so minor compared to the joys, happiness, love, and deep down change that has occurred in my church families' lives.   For those of you who don't know, we were able to purchase an old furniture store that was going out of business.  (A huge 100' x 100' metal building, or something like that!)  In about a month, we ripped up carpet, tore down walls, put up rafters, and sheet rocked the inside of our sanctuary.  This morning we had over 100 people gathered to celebrate the resurrection of Christ and the birth of our salvation.   Despite the fact that I've

Well I'm no closer in making a decision about whether to invest or not.  I'm stuck between 2 ideas. 1.  I should give it up and guard my heart.  There is no sense in pouring out emotions, time, and energy on something that is obviously not working out or giving me what I need. 2.  I need to learn to trust God and others with my heart, and God is using this whole situation as a test of my faith in Him. See I have this huge tendency to expect the worst.  My idea is that if I expect the worst,  I won't be disappointed when it doesn't work out.  Not exactly the best faith exercise. I've done that since day one with Mr. Amazing.  I've anticipatied him screwing up, breaking my heart, or blowing me off.  E very time I feel myself getting a bit too close, I freak out and back off.  I've deleted his number from my cell 2 different times but eventually added him back. I honestly thought I could handle it.  I thought I could do this whole occasional "friend"

YOU might be a school employee if you believe the playground should be equipped with a Ritalin salt lick.  YOU might be a school employee if you want to slap the next person who says, 'Must be nice to work 8 to 3:30 and have summers off.  YOU might be a school employee if it is difficult to name your own child because there's no name you can come up with that doesn't bring high blood pressure as it is uttered.  YOU might be a school employee if you can tell it's a full moon or if it going to rain, snow hail....anything!!! Without ever looking outside.  YOU might be a school employee if you believe, 'shallow gene pool' should have its own box on a report card.  YOU might be a school employee if you believe that unspeakable evils will befall you if anyone says, 'Boy, the kids sure are mellow today.'  YOU might be a school employee if when out in public, you feel the urge to snap your fingers at children you do not know and correct their behavior.  YOU migh

How do you find balance in relationships?  How do you know when to invest your time and emotions and when you need to step back and guard your heart?  I realize that nothing is certain and there are always risks, but when do you know it's ok to let go and take a risk? Obviously I can't go through life unwilling to invest in others, unwilling to give too much, at the risk of being hurt.  However, I can't go around throwing my emotions, time, and energy to any and everyone. I suppose I'm waiting for an official "wanna go steady with me?" question, but that's a question that may never come.  (And yeah I know no one says that anymore, but it sure would make things easier.) What I have to realize is this is what I got...nothing more, but fortunately, nothing less.  Is it ok for me to start investing in this regardless of an official commitment ? It's not like I'm missing out on something great by waiting around.  There is nothing else.  I can't s

Wow!  My Spring Break went by super fast.  I had a great time in DC, but it was extremely tiring!  We walked for miles seeing the city, but by the end of each day our legs were killing us.  A bunch of wusses , I know.   It was amazing to stand in the exact spot that Martin Luther King stood when he gave his "I have a dream speech ."  It was inspiring to walk through the Capitol's Rotunda where Presidents and Congressmen have walked.    It's not just someone else's history...it's my history. I got home about midnight Friday Night/Saturday Morning.  I did laundry all day Saturday and was working on our New Church today.  (It is official, the new church is ours.  The guys started sheet-rocking the walls of the Sanctuary today!  Soon there will be no more rented buildings!  YEAH!)  So I can't say that I've really rested up and am ready for school tomorrow. This week is another busy week for me.  I'm going to the Chris Tomlin concert on Thursday in Lit

I suppose if I'm going to actually try and garnish feedback about my blog, I should update it like I said I was going to. Better late than never, I suppose. Here is my second choice in layout. The Coffee Notebook. As you can tell, I really like this whole "notebook/desk" theme. I suppose it's because when I blog, I envision this as a journal. So what do I like/dislike about this layout? I like coffee! I really like the organization. It's more girly , and has a cool pen where you can search things from my blog! I'm not crazy about the Font of the Blog Title "Originally Unoriginal". I'm sure you can change that in the html code, but I'm not that smart. So what's your take? Yeah or Nay? ************************** In other news, I'm leaving at 5 AM to head to DC. I'm really excited, except the weather isn't going to be that great. Rainy, cloudy, and cold. However, they are predicting a sunny Wednesday with a high of 71!

So my week has been pretty hectic and the weekend was even crazier.  So I haven't had time to do the whole "Blog Vote", but whatever.  I'll get to it eventually. This week is going to be pretty crazy as well.  It's 9 weeks test week for my students and next week is SPRING BREAK!  So trying to keep them focused is going to be hard.  I'm also preparing for a road trip to DC!!  I've never been,  so me, mom, and a friend of hers are hopping in the car without a schedule.  All we know is we are leaving Saturday and coming back the following Saturday. In other news, I did happen to see Mr. Amazing this weekend.  We went out Friday night and actually had a great time.  He was nice, gentlemanly, and attentive as normal.  That's it...nothing more, nothing less. Anyways, I haven't caught up on sleep from the weekend or from the loss of an hour...darn that daylight savings time thingy!  I'll try and do better at having something insightful to say!

Your vote counts! I've decided to change the background of my blog again. I was never fond of the previous template, but I did like the organization of it. I've found several that I like. So in the next few weeks, I'm going to be switching up the template. So everyone check in and decide which background you like best! My takes on this template: I love the desk idea, especially the iphone! I'm not too sure about the picture of the unicorn. It's not girly enough...a bit masculine. I do like the organization and the little bubble to show how many comments for each post.

Yes, there are more. Two Ex-boyfriends contacted me this week. That makes 4 guys I've dated or had some type of complicated relationship with who have contacted me in less than 2 weeks. I'm writing the screenplay as we we speak! One guy was my first real boyfriend. It wasn't surprising that he messaged me because we talk every once in awhile. But the other ex, well, I haven't seen him or talked to him in over 7 years. He's the only guy I ever loved. I've made references to him in this blog before, but they were subtle, and you may not remember. He was the guy I dated my senior year in high school, the one that I thought I was going to run off and marry and live happily ever after with. But things don't always happen like we plan. For whatever reasons, things happened directly opposite to what I had envisioned. I'm ok with it all now, and I know that God has a reason for it all. But I must admit that curiosity has latched hold of me, and I

We'll just chalk these 2 incidents up to more of Kimberly's Strange Guy Stories. Story #1 -- Mr. Amazing texted me on Valentine's Day to naturally wish me Happy Valentine's Day.  Then a couple of hours later he texted and said "just wanted to let you know you are amazing."  I asked what made him think of that, and he replied that he was just thinking about me that day.  We exchanged some pleasantries , "how is your day" etc.  But in ending the conversation he said "I just felt like you deserved to know how great you really are."   If I didn't have the need to stay clear of his charm, I would have been floating on cloud 9.  However, I grabbed the nearest chair and grounded myself firmly.  How convenient that while he's at home alone on Valentine's Day he thinks of me.  He should have tried a day later, and I may have been impressed.  Don't get me wrong, I'm sure he does honestly think I'm great and amazing.  But

I am enjoying the night I deserve. Finally, after weeks of being busy, I've had a free week night. I've had basketball games, night class, church, and other social obligations for weeks straight. Tonight I was able to come home at a decent hour and stay at home! I sat outside for about an hour on my balcony reading a book. Once I got too cold, I came inside and continued reading while soaking in a warm bubble bath. Then my brother cooked a really good dinner. BBQ chicken, corn, green beans, and potatoes. Now I'm watching The Secret Life of an American Teenager and am going to do some more reading after that. I'm enjoying my night off. I'm forgetting about stupid boys and dumb drama and problems I can't fix. Tonight I'm just relaxing!

Here's a quote from Grey's Anatomy. Lexie wants to tell Callie all about her new relationship. Lexie (talking about Mark): He's fun and he's funny. Even with no sex we just laugh and we talk. Callie: Yeah. I don't want to hear this. Lexie: Come on! But you have to. You're the only one who knows about us and I'm terrible at keeping secrets. Keeping secrets makes me sick. Callie: Look. Alone people don't like to hear about the together people. Okay. Even if the alone people are alone by choice. It's just sort of mean. It's sort of like bringing a 6-pack to an AA meeting

You should know by now that if I've avoided the blogosphere for too long, it means 1 or 2 things: My life is so busy that I don't have time to write. I am dealing with so many thoughts that I refuse to sit down and write because I don't want to deal with them. This time, its a mixture of the two. I'm taking a night class this semester to prepare for a 3 part test.  I have to take this test to be certified to teach a computer class next semester.  The kicker is, our district won't know if we'll even be able to offer the class until April, but I have to take all this training just in case it all works out.  Of course, when you ask for details, no one seems to know anything.  I've gotten so many different answers that it's left me a bit stressed.  I like to know what is expected of me, and everything is so up in the air that it's driving me crazy. I've also applied to Graduate School.  I planned on starting this summer, but the fellowship I'm ap

As promised...here is the handbag meme that Chantell tagged me to do! First, these are the latest purses that I received.  I got both of these for Christmas.  The silver one I got from my parents.  I've used it once, but I really like it.  The problem is it's not quite as big as I like for everyday use.  The maroon MSU bag was given to me by some friends.  I'll use it when I'm at the game! Secondly, the purses I'm currently using.  I use both the black and the brown purse daily, just depending on what color I'm wearing.  The black purse was purchased last November in LA at one of my favorite stores Forever 21 .  It's really big put I LOVE it.  The brown purse I got for $20 or so at a little store in Jackson, MS called The Silver Gallery . Next is one of my favorite purses.  I used it almost all summer because it's big, white, durable, but really cute.  I bought this last Spring Break in Little Rock, AR at Forever 21.  I probably paid about $30 for it,

This week has been busy, and it looks like I'm about to get much busier.  I started a night class this morning, but I'll give you all the details this weekend.  I promise.  And a purse meme, compliments of Chantell's tag....all coming soon!

I was at a concert tonight, Bucky Covington .  But that's not the story.  I saw a guy walk in with several of his friends, and he was...Edward Cullen like.  (For those not in the know, that's the guy from Twilight .) I know, I'm sick, but it's true.  He was very good looking, but it was more than that.  He seemed to give off some type of energy.  I tried not to stare, but I don't think I was so good at following through.  He was dressed nicely in a grey turtleneck, jeans, and a black leather jacket. He just seemed so perfect.  He nor his friends stayed very long.  I saw them as they all walked out, my Edward strolling confidently and beautifully down the aisle.  Maybe they didn't like the music or maybe they had to go hunt?  I looked for him after the show was over, but I didn't see him. If he shows up in my dreams, then maybe I'll be on to something?  I did dream about hanging out with Tim Tebow a couple of nights ago though! :)

**Disclaimer**  I'll probably be giving away a little bit of the plot to the books, so if you are still reading the Series...proceed with caution! So I finally decided to read the Twilight books and figure out what was so great that it had all of my students (7 th graders to seniors) actually sticking their heads in a book!  It didn't take too long to realize that the story is plain mesmerizing.  I started the saga last Sunday and finished it today.  I even read the 3rd book in one night.  I started at 6:30 and couldn't stop reading until I finished it at 2:30 that morning. A guy friend and aspiring author said that he wanted to read the series and try to figure out what it was that women wanted in a good novel, since Twilight seemed to be the only thing teenage girls could talk about lately.  My first response was, "A girl wants out of a novel what she wants in reality but knows she isn't going to get...perfection!"  After finishing the last book, Breaking D